August is Coming!

August is coming, and in the Bock house that means a ton of activity, planning, spending, and running around. Before Stephen and I were married, August was uneventful; oh, how things have changed!
I'll give you a peek at our upcoming calendar:

August 8: Kelli Doctor in the a.m.; Hunter and Iveigh Doctor in the p.m.
August 9: Hunter Soccer "Tryout" (in the a.m.); Birthday party to be at by 1:00
August 14: Kelli Doctor
August 17: Iveigh Turns 2
August 19: Grand Bocks Should Arrive From Overseas
August 21: Hunter's First Day of School
August 23: SYSCO Day at Sea World (if Stephen is working instead, I attend a shower)
August 24: 6 Year Wedding Anniversary
August 29: Hunter turns 5

That is a sneak peek....now sit back a breathe for me....

Pregnancy From My Perspective....

You Know You're Pregnant When.....

1) You pass up yummy frozen drinks at the beach

2) Your "skinny" jeans involve a four inch waist band

3) Your allergies are acting up and you are unable to pop a pill

4) You cry at sappy Publix commercials

5) Being stuck with needles at the OBGYN multiple times become routine

6) While gaining weight you actually want rigorous exercise but can't

7) You think that your feet are the sexiest thing on your body

8) You read every label and have your doctor on speed dial

9) You feel justified for eating anything at anytime and anywhere

10) You pop your belly out at the hopes that people notice you're pregnant and not just oddly proportioned

Great News!

Today I got great news from the doctor. The baby does not have any chromosomal defects! Hurray! Our prayers have been answered. I can finally breathe, again. What a wonderful early birthday present!

This has been the hardest obstacle that I personally had to overcome to date. I am sure that this won't be the last hurdle in my path, but with every experience like this I grow. I've tried to "count it all joy" and to "trust in the Lord" (some times better than other times....but hey, I'm human). Praise God from whom all blessings flow!

Please, celebrate with me....!!!!!

Taking it "easy"

I know that most people would enjoy the excuse of not being able to do anything, but it does get old after a while. It is Saturday, almost noon, and I'm ready to be back to my normal way of things. Yesterday, I started anticipating a call back from the doctor's office that should come in on Monday. That will be able to give me some initial results from the amnio. The full report takes about two weeks.

I try to imagine what the nurse will say, and what my reaction will be. This has definitely been the hardest and bumpiest road that I've personally traveled to date. Its also hard when you feel that others around you don't understand or appreciate the severity or the weight of it. It is hard to explain and defend my emotions, but I don't exactly know if I need to, either. For I know that if others experienced this same dilemma, their reactions and feelings would want to be warranted and sympathized by others. Regardless of the outcome, my feelings aren't going to change. I pray for good results.

Trying to Breathe

"Trust in the Lord with all of your heart...."
I have heard, read, and memorized this verse so many times throughout the years, and it is one that I struggle with so much. Sometimes, anxiety rushes over me, and I feel disappointed in myself that I have let it invade my mind, again. Other people try to remind me to cling to this verse, but that makes me feel worse knowing that I have these words from God and I still struggle. It isn't like I don't want to "let go and let God." It is that I pray and rely, but emotions still linger within my heart.

Is that wrong? Can someone, totally, give up a burden mind, body and soul? To feel absolutely no anxiety at all? Wow....maybe I am not that spiritually advanced....

Whatever the case, I am waiting on results from the amnio. The doctor may call tomorrow with initial results about two "defects." You already know that I am struggling, but I don't want to admit it. Consider this me being transparent and confessing before God and everyone else.....

Yuck, I know!

Ok people! Today I got my stitches out from my mole-ectomy (I'm not sure that is even a word but it's a fun word). All went well and now I have a tiny hole that needs to heal up. Remember, when it comes to marks on your skin...."When in doubt, get it checked out!"....Oh! Please, pray for us tomorrow...(btw)...I am having the amniocentesis and will be on bed rest for 2 days after. Please, pray for great results and safety during the procedure....THANKS!

Amnio. Update

Today Stephen and I went in to see our doctor for the amniocentesis. Let me start off by listing these key words: long needle, no numbing meds., ultra sound, iodine, contractions, ouch. Now I am resting at my parent's house while writing my blog to you wonderful people. Prayerfully, I will be fine and there will be no complications with me or the baby. Updates to come....thanks for praying....