Is it really me...or?

Am I really cocky? Am I really intimidating?
I have been told this by a few different people. Weird, but I never thought of myself in that way.
Is it my body language? Is it the way I approach conversation?
Is it that I don't seek out people immediately; that I wait for people to come to me?
What is it? Thoughts?

Are you Kidding me?

Late this afternoon my family ventured out to the mall. There is a play area in the center where we are able to sit and watch them play with other kids. While sitting in the food court with my children (very visible and sitting at the table) two guys walk bye. One of the two dropped the "f" bomb right there in his conversation. You would think that would be enough, but this obviously classy guy decided to enunciate the word in a louder than normal voice while walking right by my 4 1/2 year old.
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?
I decided to speak in my own loud tone and said
"Son (to my child), NEVER use that word" -ME
"What word mommy?" -4 1/2yr old
"The word that came out of that man's mouth. He wasn't using his SMART words, and it isn't ever OK to say." -ME
A part of me really wanted to go over to him and bop in upside his head. (Tonight on eyewitness news....mother of two arrested for assault in a mall)....The other part of me was just to dumbfounded and livid to do anything.
People have to be aware of those around them. They may not be offended by certain things, but they are not the only ones walking the planet. And by the way random guy at the mall....
MIND YOUR MOUTH....DO YOU KISS YOUR MOTHER WITH THAT MOUTH?

Tonight was a Green Tea Night

I love green tea. It calms me, makes me feel as though I am being healthy, and is cheaper than coffee. Don't get me wrong, I still my "Joe" but the green tea maybe moving its way into my heart.
A lot of people don't like green tea. I don't know why. With the perfect amount of honey and a raw sugar packet I am just moments away from seeping into a relaxed state of mind. Its great.

Giggly Girls

I was taken back to silly school girl giggling tonight, and it was fun. I would publish more quotes, but I need to save that ammo for another time. Plus, everyone else that wasn't around may not appreciate them in their raw state.
Let me just say, that my husband is the best...letting his wife go out two times in three days to just be silly with the girls! How awesome is that? He get the kids to bed and everything, and he never complains about it....not even a sarcastic remark! That's a winner, and one reason I married him. Truly, a wonderful man that wants happiness for me!
I also love my friends! How great to basically invite yourself over to someone's house and hang out on their sofa for three hours...interrupting their nightly TV rituals with side bar comments followed by snickers and giggles. Linds...you're pretty cool, and your dogs are super cute! Cindy, no bitterness, no walls, and a mind like yours is a terrible thing to waste. I know that you enjoy sitting by me (for so many reasons...I can think of two right now).....Ok...so the quotes I said I wouldn't post...they are was too good to waste...so here are a few from tonight (some edited for content j/k)
1) "10 things I hate about you" "YEAH, SPEAKING ABOUT THAT...."
2) "Don't catch his puke"
3) "I love me some sugar"
4) "You aren't good enough to catch my vomit"
5) "Jealous?"

W_ _ _ Y_ _ M_ _ _ I_

Had to Be there Moments

These are 20 conversational moments I've had with friends from all walks of life...you may recognize one or two...If you have no idea what this is all about....sorry this won't be a normal occurrence...

1) "...they tied him up...." Response, "Ohh...that's scary....at least he is saved..."

2) "I never thought I'd be friends with you..."

3) "No that wasn't pouting....that was mad" (sub. alternate word here)

4) "What's next...a hanging?"

5) "I'm sitting on 1000 and I don't want to farckle"

6) "I'm sitting at my pooter"

7) "He doesn't have a very high GQ"

8) "I'm so happy I'm on cloud 8"

9) "This pig is hogging all of the room"

10) "Shhhhh.....stop guessing, I'm trying to think" - While playing catch phrase

11) "Here's another brick for that wall"

12) "Can you have a non-judgement table at Denny's?"

13) "Life changes those things...you know...those things..."

14) "Is that a mouse in your pocket...."

15) "HEY...Look what this guy here is buying to look at.....!"

16) "Who dare disturb my slumber....NOT IT"

17) "They all look the same to me"

18) "HEY MR MONEY BAGS!" - followed by the death look...

19) "You don't like me very much, do you Aaron" "No, not so much."

20) "What's that?" "Oh man, give me the pen and paper...."

Hot and Bothered

Today I freaked out because the A/C was acting funny (again) in the car. I don't know what it is about air circulation that I just thrive on. As soon as I don't feel air moving...I freak. My body begins to heat up immediately as if I just ran a 10 mile marathon! My brain no longer functions and this Hyde like character emerges from the depths. I then need to alleviate the situation as quickly as possible. My sentences get shorter; my patience thins. It isn't pretty.
Needless to say, I should go to trade school and become my own A/C specialist on call 24/7!

PHEW....is it hot in here....got to go kick on the air....

One More Thing

I love this song, and I play it over and over again. Read these lyrics....just reflect

John Mayer
Say
Take out of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all your so called problems
Better put 'em in quotations
Say what you need to say (x7)
Say what you need to saaaay...
Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead
If you could only
Say what you need to say (x7)
Say what you need to saaay...
Have no fear
For giving in
Have no fear
For getting over
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much
Then never to say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open... wide...
Say what you need to say (x7)
Say what you need to
Say what you need to
Say what you need to say...

Settle Down

The house is quiet, cool, and finally calm. This weekend has been a rush of chaos and confusion, but now that a new week is upon us, all is tranquil once again. My youngest is finally feeling comfortable enough to sleep. She doesn't have such a high fever (scarring the mess out of us with 103)...My oldest protested going to sleep but was silent as soon as he sunk into his pillow. I quietly sit her and reflect while listening to soothing music.
Isn't it funny how the days, weeks, months, and years fly by. I feel as I just had a baby girl, but now she's almost two. Her once unmanageable, stubborn hair has grown into golden curls, and I feel as though my oldest is slipping away more and more every day. His baby-ness is just about gone, and I try to grasp his childlike ways and hold onto these precious moments.
I turn around and I've been married almost six years. Aren't I still like fifteen? Maybe 17 just packing for college, or 18 in my first apartment...No, I am a grown woman with a family to raise and take care of.
Life flys by as we try to capture it. It can not be caged and we don't get do over's. Hold on to each moment. Savor each flavor that seeps onto our pallite. Enjoy your ride for we do not know the time allotted.

Am I yesterday's News?

Ok...I have gone from 5 comments to 0......
I just wanted to see if anyone is reading this anymore.....
so if you are...tell me....

Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood

Today my husband was off of work. That meant that I could sleep in a little while he got the kids ready for the day and took the oldest to school. He made me pancakes when he got home, and they were yummy!
Remember how I once wrote of the universe making sure that we know our place? Well, when we got in the car to pick up our son from school...I heard a POP....know what it was?
THE AIR CONDITIONING!
That may not be a big deal to those of you who are dealing with cooler temps, but here it was in the eighties today! Not to mention, another monetary donation to someone who has better mechanical/electrical skills than we.
Oh well....we did get it fixed today. Our air now works in the house and car! If anyone needs a good mechanic or AC tech...let us know...we're more than qualified to refer someone now...

An e-mail I wrote

I was writing an e-mail to my in laws today about two friends. Matt Cushman, a guy from our church and our small group) is healing from brain surgery as a result of a brain tumor. Lora Kesselhon, a family friend, also had learned (while 23 wks. pregnant and a mother of two) that she, as well, has a type of lymphoma in her brain.
I began responding to a previous e-mail but it just evolved into something that I thought I should post:

We did know about Lora around the same time that we knew about Matt Cushman's tumor. Both of us thought that you had already known. Sorry for not telling you sooner. Matt also has a page there if you wanted to see his. I believe that there is a link from Lora's. (At Caring Bridge)
We are praying for their healing and are perplexed by the obvious spiritual warfare that is going on. (Lora apparently discipled or has been very close to Stephanie for a long time)
I can't imagine going through all of these things. We thank God that we have been healthy, and that my CT's came back normal. Blessings are all around me, and I praise God for that.
I don't want to take these things for granted because you never know what can happen. Lora & Ryan, Matt & Stephanie have been so brave and a witness of God's strength through everything. Their faithfulness is amazing and it makes one hope that they would too have an ounce of it if faced with the same trials. I just sob feeling only a moment of what Lora lives with when I look at Hunter and Iveigh. Then that moment is over and I go on with my day. She carries it with her moment by moment with no escape except in God's presence. How selfish of me to worry about trivial things like laundry, school agendas or even bills. My mind swims trying to understand all of this, but I wasn't meant to understand.
If nothing else, it makes me cling to him more for things I can not control.

I'm so annoyed....

Alright, I was prepared to just settle on the fact that I have been tired today for some reason, but no....Now I have reached the point of just being annoyed at things around me...
1-The stupid message box that pops up on screens and asks me for the thirtieth time if I will allow a program to run...bla bla bla...I SAID NO ONCE....Take the HINT
2-People using their stupid phone when driving BADLY on Lake Mary Blvd. then speed up
when they hang up to get in front of me...then SLOW DOWN...when they get back on the phone....
GEESH...He's obviously not that into you (girl in the white car) if you have to keep calling him...TAKE THE HINT
3-Children who ask me "why?' when they know the answer "You are putting your pajamas on to GO TO BED" Again...TAKE THE HINT
4-When you TRY to check out at the Wal-Mart only to find 3 (exaggeration) lanes open...go to the 10 items or less lane and see a COUPLE (2 people) with TWO carts FULL....10 items people.. just 10...YES people around you are upset....because WE FOLLOW THE RULES! No HINT there just SELFISHNESS!
5-Sitting up writing on your blog because what you really want to do is go to the bathroom and go to bed but your significant other is repairing a pipe that is cracked outside that required turning the water off....a job that was claimed to "only be a minute"......has lasted 2 HOURS....

Deep ponder/conclusion

So, it was a good day...went to church, sang on the worship team.....went home....made pancakes for the family.....played around with the kids a while....then left to have dinner and conversations with some girl friends of mine.....got home and I began to think....
I am so grateful that I have friends (and family obviously...but this isn't about them)
in my life that I have known for so long. I don't even have to talk to them on the phone or see them everyday to be able to pick up with them where I left off. I cherish those people around me that have stuck with me and been there no matter what phase of my life I am going through.
I may not have been buddy buddy with all of these people growing up, but they have always been there, and I know that they would have been there for me then if I had really needed it.
Who else can say that they have had such a large group of friends for like twenty years?
OK, so some people can, but this is like my entire class from grade, middle, and high school.
They know me, and I know them. No matter how different we are, we are the same. We are comfortable around each other; we love each other; we care about each other.
We have differences, some times....but move on....no matter what funk we are going through....
I must remember not to abuse these relationships...not to neglect them.....but to nourish them and to maintain them....because they are the ones that will last.....the ones that I will carry on with me during this rough terrain of life......
If you are reading this, and you know that I am writing about you....thanks......remember to
"Make new friends, but keep the old. Some are silver, the others gold." -?

Caved Again

I caved into peer pressure again and changed the background of my blog (as if you couldn't already tell)....
I am not sure I am in love with it...
You tell me!

Amazing what they get into

It is true that your child may have a millions toys, but they always are playing with the things that you don't want them to have
- pencils
- screwdrivers (DON'T RUN AFTER THEM)
- hand soap (unless you want them clean..then it is ignored)
- Rubbermaid containers (open or shut)
- childproofed medicines (although my youngest manages to open a bottle of Pepto this AM)
- remote controls (how did they get the SAP on the TV?)
- wires (all kinds from anywhere)
- your toothbrush (gross...I know)
- older brother's stickers (geesh....they turn up everywhere)
I would finish this list...but my daughter is pulling out all of my measuring cups...dinner time!

What I am looking at

I am looking at the Internet hookup that has invaded one corner of my house. For a while, I prided myself on not submitting to a mechanical/technological device. Now, I am one of those people who will have extra distractions from things that I am already distracted from.
Like now, for instance, I am writing on a blog while my kids are in another room.
Distracted. Sold out. Make room on the band wagon!

Mission Accomplished!

Fixed....and comfy...good....
The A/C is no longer "busted" (again...apology to the English buffs).....GOOD
Not to expensive either....SOOOOO GOOD!

Today....another fresh start

Alright...the day started off pretty normal....
Get my little one to school....My better half had the day off....
Went to get a new computer....Wait, what? Yes...for those of you who do not know....My family has been without such a device since....well, since our beginning! You could imagine the enormity of this occasion!
Came home after picking up the little one....
A/C not working.....Wait, what? Yes, I said that the air conditioning is BUSTED! (harsh for the English folks to read...but it needed to be said)
Why is it that when we make a major purchase the universe slants causing a rush of misfortune? LIKE THE A/C DYING???
It never fails...really...whatever
So here I sit...a new computer....watching....hoping that this last minute A/C guy can fix our issue.....without having to fork over a huge bundle of our depleting funds....
Would this be a good definition of ironic? That vocab word wasn't thoroughly explained to me in high school because when it was on our test...the Alanis M. song came out around the same time and messed me up...apparently, she uses the word incorrectly in her song? I think that is what my teacher said.
Amazing....I can get this far in my life...and I am still using words and phrases incorrectly....Why? No one has yet to tell me that I am using it wrong!